"FEBRUARY 28, 2011" this is the date i was totally f***ed up! tsk.

that day i feel dumb. i dont know what am i gonna do. i feel like im a bad person because i experienced this kind of pain. im trying to question my friends about my performance to them but they said im a great person,IM A GOOD friend, but how come i can feel this stupid pain? how come im always to be like this?   how come i soo love the person but they leave me hanging?how come i change for the better but still it doesn't work? how come i fight him but it end to be like this? how come?? CAN ANYBODY ANSWER ALL THIS QUESTIONS? because swear i don't know how can i manage it! i know it's my fault, i expect everything from him. why do boys always say that he love you, they dont want you to get hurt but in fact their action represent an immoral act! they always say lines that may encourage you to love them again but sad to say its all "LIES" . i may not be a good person in some aspects but im trying to respect all the people around me. but it is enough! haaayy! i dont know what to do im in the stage of depression now but im trying to help myself not to express it because i know theyre going to ask me what's wrong and i dont want to talk about it! waaaaaa! hahay! :(