and it feels like shit.

when he said to me they have dinner date with that girl. i feel pain inside but a few minutes after fade away. i dont know if what am i gonna say to him. but i said its better that he and that girl have a relationship for that his parents will be happy. a friend of mine said MOVE ON and HAVE FUN. this is my first time that i feel so dumb but sad to say i dont know what am i gonna do. everybody said to me. WE TOLD YOU FROM THE MOMENT THAT TWO OF YOU HAD FEELING WITH EACH OTHER DON'T PURSUE THAT FEELING COZ WE KNOW IN THE END YOU'LL CRY! but i follow my stupid heart. and here it goes. FUCKING PAIN AND PAIN! and ohhh it is twice! and all i can say FUCK! ANOTHER MISTAKE AGAIN! :(

WASTED. and it hurts. :(

I never knew that this is gonna be the ending of my love story. yess i know he's scared. and i didn't expect this shit happen to me. i love him honestly. but sad to say he love me but i think it is not to the extent that he will do for the sake of our love. waaaaa! ang sakit talaga. wala akong masabi. bakit ba kasi nangyari sakin to. :( walan naman ako ginagawa. hayy! lord help me to handle the situation. please! i dont want to fail. :| i know LORD GOD you gave me this kind of situation because you know i can surpass this. hopefully hindi ako maubusan ng pagasa. :(