FUCKING PAIN

And i read the msg of that bitch again in his yahoo and i did not expect it. i thought he said to me was true but ohh it's a lie again. and i want to punch his face until it will crack but i can't. i txted him with all my emotions, my madness. all the words comes inside of my head. i never knew that he can do this to me. but there's always a 

phrase "EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED" at first i decided not to reply of his text because im too tired of his lies. but there's a friend of mine send me message about FORGIVENESS,LOVE, etc. i try to ponder. and i can't handle myself especially if there's hatred in my heart. i feel like im not with GOD. and i realize nobody's perfect, so i gave chance to him. hoping and praying that it will not happened again. :)