another day of heartache :(

A day had passed yet still our vibes wasn't good. yes, i cant blame him nor myself. this day i experienced mixed emotions. i want to cry but there is no tears falling. when i saw his letter. shocked at the first place i did not expect that he wrote a letter to me. my heartbeat fast as i read it then my tears falling into my eyes without even knowing it. a few minutes later. he said goodbye. and im speechless. because all of the time i end to be like this. i know he can't fight our love. i know that since he confronted me. and it kills me, but all i can do is to accept the fact that we are not meant for each other. at first i thought he is the one because he's different and all. but.. there are some identifiable scenario happen. that it lead me not to trust him but afterwards i force myself to give him another chance because nobody's perfect. BUT NOW HE SAID GOODBYE BECAUSE HE LOVE ME. :( why am i always be like this? end up hanging? crying. and asking herself am i not worthy to love? I'm hoping to god that he can succeed in his life. i hope that he will be happy. i hope that this pain inside my heart will be fade away quickly. I LOVE HIM AND HE LOVE ME. BUT WERE NOT MEANT TO BE. :'(